Growing up I didn’t really have any ambitions, no set career path, no goals, I was just strolling through life happily. Truthfully the only thing I was looking forward to was falling in love and being a mum.
And so I drifted though school and college, then signed up with an agency and enjoyed the freedom of NOT sticking to a job! Life was good. I earned money, I finished a contract then took time off and blew that money. Which, as you’ve guessed it, led me into getting another contract. This circle of my life continued for roughly 7years.
If only life could have stayed that simple.
During this time I met my now husband. It may sound cliché, but I knew from the moment we met that he was the one, my true love. This didn’t stop us having an ‘on, off’ relationship!
On paper we are so wrong for each other. However every time we ended things, a magnetic field forced us back together again. As a result of our making up sessions, my carefree life changed suddenly when I found myself pregnant!
24, not married and pregnant! OMG! Yes it was a dream of mine to be a mum so I was thrilled. On the other hand, coming from very strict families I dreaded how my family would react AND if his family would except me!
Obviously, things worked out. Nether less it was a very stressful 5 months before both families gave us their blessings.
Now 15 years later I am happily married and a mum of 3 boys under 15 and a dog! I have the life I’d always wanted. I AM living the dream!
Well, if only life was that simple!
I never realised how hard being a parent would be. Never mind the sleepless nights, the dirty nappies and all the throwing up, these were the easy things! Then came the whinging and tantrum’s, demand after demand, strop after strop.
Did my parents go through this with me? If so I apologize Mum and Dad… “SORRY”
Now the boys are older, things just seem to be getting tougher. How do you compromise with a child who doesn’t understand how to compromise? Why do they not understand my point of view? And every parents question – when will my children stop fighting!!!
I know there are many struggles we will face as a family and I definitely wouldn’t change my life. I know a day will come when I’ll be told “I hate you Mum!” This is the time when I will need to remember all the ‘I love you’s’. Life IS difficult and I AM ready to face the challenges.
Saying that I do still wonder…
IF ONLY LIFE HAD STAYED SIMPLE.