One Step Forward

I take one step forward

Then two steps back

I try to be strong

But get stopped in my track.

I wake feeling prepared

Knowing I need to be brave

I almost achieve my target

Then suddenly I cave.

My palms get sweaty

My heart begins to race

My thoughts begin to scramble

Fear is plastered on my face.

I can’t control these feelings

No matter how hard I try

Anxiety takes over my body

I want to run away and cry.

But too long have I suffered

Too long have I succumb

Too much have I given up

Its time to leave behind my slum.

No more will I suffer

I don’t want to hide in shame

I just want to live a free life

Instead of trying to disguise my pain.

I will conquer my fear

I will speak up and shout

I will stand up for myself

And I will finally… ask you out!

 

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Β© 2018 Poem by Baffledmum (Suki Matharu)

30 Comments Add yours

  1. Also One step closer. It felt like a movie on rollπŸ‘ŒπŸ™‚

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  2. sam basu says:

    Beautifully written

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  3. Lovely… it felt like a song. I actually sang it, you might not like the tune though …πŸ˜€πŸ˜€…

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      πŸ˜‚ I’m sure it was great! Lol!

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  4. Thought for change says:

    This is one of your best.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Oh wow! Thank you… X

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  5. shoniessky says:

    Really nice, less than half way through I was like definitely anxiety. Then as I read on seeing the word I was like (I knew it), you explained so very well about the effects and it’s a rough thing to fight, love how in the ending showed strength to push back! Very very beautiful

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    1. Baffledmum says:

      Thank you. I didn’t know where I was going with the poem as I was writing it but the ending just fitted perfectly! X

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      1. shoniessky says:

        You’re very welcome!

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  6. deimile says:

    You are so talented! Great poem!

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Thank you 😚

      Like

  7. Beautifully written ❀️

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  8. Nidhi says:

    Beautiful narration πŸ‘

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  9. Anonymous says:

    This poem is going to be on the lips of every love struck teenager! So could be a song!! Wickedly done girl!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Thank you… 😊

      Like

  10. Plastered fear…so true
    Love the poem πŸ’•πŸ’•β˜€οΈ

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Glad you liked it… X

      Like

  11. Anonymous says:

    This is too good! Absolutely loving it! ❀️

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Thank you 😊

      Like

  12. honest and open! did you get the date?

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    1. Baffledmum says:

      Lol! I’ve never had the guts to ask anyone out! But happily married now so never need to feel like the lines in this poem… πŸ˜ƒ

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  13. Anonymous says:

    A great build up of words to a perfect ending

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Baffledmum says:

      Thank you. I thought I’d add a twist at the end and make it a little fun… X

      Like

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