Waiting words

There’s so much on my mind

Words are waiting to be said

Thoughts are scrambling in my brain

Engulfing my days with dread.

I can’t make sense of my feelings

Too many rumours have been spread

How do I establish the truth

How do I refrain from being misled?

Scenarios are playing out before me

Visions continuously running through my head

I can’t concentrate on daily life

I can’t switch off at night in bed.

I practice what I’m going to say

Making sure nothing is left unsaid

All the correct words are at the tip of my tongue

But at the last-minute I swallow them up instead.

I’m not strong enough to do this

So many situations I have fled

I’ve cried so much, I’ve run out of tears

So many times has my poor heart bled.

I understand its time to take a stand

To break free from this life I’ve led

I need to put myself first for a change

I must say ALL that needs to be said.

So listen up as I am speaking

I’m freeing my voice which has lain dead

I need you to respect me and my decisions

Or I’ll leave you behind as I continue ahead…

 

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Β© 2018 Poem by Baffledmum (Suki Matharu)

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