There’s so much on my mind
Words are waiting to be said
Thoughts are scrambling in my brain
Engulfing my days with dread.
I can’t make sense of my feelings
Too many rumours have been spread
How do I establish the truth
How do I refrain from being misled?
Scenarios are playing out before me
Visions continuously running through my head
I can’t concentrate on daily life
I can’t switch off at night in bed.
I practice what I’m going to say
Making sure nothing is left unsaid
All the correct words are at the tip of my tongue
But at the last-minute I swallow them up instead.
I’m not strong enough to do this
So many situations I have fled
I’ve cried so much, I’ve run out of tears
So many times has my poor heart bled.
I understand its time to take a stand
To break free from this life I’ve led
I need to put myself first for a change
I must say ALL that needs to be said.
So listen up as I am speaking
I’m freeing my voice which has lain dead
I need you to respect me and my decisions
Or I’ll leave you behind as I continue ahead…
© 2018 Poem by Baffledmum (Suki Matharu)