I’m running as fast as I can!
Out of my classroom grabbing my coat on the way. Down the hallway ignoring the teachers calling after me. Across the playground as fast as I can and out of the school gates which luckily are open as a delivery van has just entered.
I ran down the road not thinking about where I am going, no direction in mind nor considering where I’ll end up. I just keep running and running trying to get further away, trying to put as much distance as I can between me and school.
I finally stop to catch my breath leaning on the bus stop for support. I glance down the street ensuring I’m not being followed, it’s clear. Looking around, I try to establish where I am, the surroundings look familiar but it’s not my usual way home. I know there’s a park somewhere up ahead, that’ll be a good place to hide out, nobody will find me there. Still out of breath, I decide to speed walk to the park.
Finding a bench below the trees, I take a seat and start replaying the events of the day. I hate school! I’ve told them at home but I keep being told to give it a chance. The children are vile! They have no respect for each other let alone themselves and the language that comes out of their mouths is unbelievably disgusting. I wish I’d never moved schools, the last one was so much better. Here, even the teachers have given up hope. They just go through the emotions, repeating the same lesson plans, handing out detentions trying to get some discipline in place. But there is no hope, no helping this school, it’s too far gone!
I sit confused, what will happen now? I wonder if the receptionist has phoned my house yet, they’ll be so disappointed with me at home. My friends, the few that I have, must be worried about me. Everyone will be talking about me! Laughing at me! I shake my head, I don’t want to think about the consequences. I just need to breathe.
The park is fairly busy considering the sun isn’t shining today. There are couples walking around hand in hand, people walking their dogs and mums pushing prams whilst little toddlers are trailing behind them. People from all walks of life enjoying a leisurely stroll. Some even walk past me and offer a smile unaware of the chaos inside my head, I smile back gratefully.
I sit for what feels like hours, trying to inhale the positivity from these strangers around me. Trying to replace the negative vibes I carry around from my days at school. But I know I can’t sit here forever, I understand I must return to my life. My actions have consequences and I realise I need to face them, starting with visiting the principles office to explain myself. The conversation would be a difficult one, I have no idea what I would say, how I could possibly explain?
My only strength is that I’m good with words, I am after all … Head of the English department!
© 2019 Story by Baffledmum (Suki Matharu)